You are my angel

You Are My Angel

 

I watch you from heaven,

I will wait for you,

so far I've waited seven,

that's how I know it's true.

 

When you gaze up in the sky,

looking for answers in the clouds,

I gaze upon your eyes,

I couldn't miss them in a crowd.

 

I know this came too fast,

God took me from your heart,

I wish that moment weren't my last,

each and every part.

 

Even though I'm in heaven's gates,

the one that wears her wings,

I know love when it's my fate,

you are my angel, so he sings.

Be True

Be True

 

Cry for me, and pray for me

and smile for me tonight.

You'll long for me and know for me

and try for me with fight.

 

Feel for me, and hold for me

and dream for me, the good.

You'll steal for me and lie for me

and fly for me, you would.

 

Pinch me I think I'm falling,

catch me I think I'm stalling,

don't do these things for me,

don't do these things for you.

 

Look to our future you see.

We'll cry, pray and smile,

to be true.

Not Sunshine and Rainbows

Not Sunshine and Rainbows

 

Misty droplets roll down thine's cheek

and kiss whatever they land upon.

Finding the sunshine that I seek

is becoming a countless deed in the sun.

 

Your friendship used to consume me

but lately it just grows weak,

from a consorted path I needst break free,

before we drift too great lengths and break.

 

You speakst of sunshine and rainbows,

which I agree we are not,

but every friendship has their sorrows,

and in this case there's a lot.

 

Please don't shy away from me

when I need you now the most,

don't hesitate your feelings,

deep down I feel no longer close.

 

Even though we're not blood related

I felt so close to you

and now with all the feeling of hatred

I want to reach out to you,

but burning in my heart,

will you reach back,

or will this friendship fall apart

and turn an awful black?

 

I sincerely apologize for all the hurt I have caused you,

I hope we can move past this and together laugh later too.

 

I'm reaching out to you,

through the rainbows,

through the butterflies,

through the clouds,

and the sunshine,

I'm reaching out to you,

in hopes you see through

to my heart

and accept me as I am,

a little broken,

but with time,

with a friend like you,

we can begin to mend.

Leaving You Bereft

 Leaving You Bereft 

 

Together close your eyes

and see the darkness,

for it's but a disguise

to hide your loathness.

 

Of him, him that holds lust,

the bearer of non-trust

with the face of an angel,

and you, you damned damsel.

 

Blind you fell, for him

too quickly and prostrate,

before life went dim,

him you had to truncate.

 

Just like that you grasped

at what you had left,

it may have been very rash

leaving you alone and bereft.

 

What's done is done though,

Happiness may come and go.

For what you choose to believe,

taken, leaving you dark and bereaved.

 

 

Only His

Only His

 

 

You make him laugh,

which makes him smile,

which keeps you smiling,

because he's smiling.

 

He makes you see,

which makes you tremble,

which keeps him trembling,

because you're trembling.

 

Drown your lust and sorrow,

open your arms for tomorrow,

and reach for euphoria,

your love no longer his to borrow.

 

You conjure his heart,

which causes his love,

which keeps to expand,

because his love only grows for you.

 

With each embrace,

with each touch,

comes a love to trace,

without fuss.

 

He seized your heart,

which makes you seize his,

which keeps him seized,

because you're his.

 

And only his.

Ativan

Ativan

 

The chalk taste swells under my tongue,

glides around to the back of my mouth,

dissolving instantaneously.

 

Lay still my heart slows

and my hearing alert,

to the ever so soundless night.

 

A numbness swallows my body

and my eyelids uncontrollably droop.

 

A tingling sensation in my head,

I melt even further to the surrounding sheets,

enveloping my body.

 

My heart slows to a steady beat,

with an intoxicating rhythm,

of the slow rise and fall of my chest.

 

Fighting my thoughts further

and further away from this moment,

I am almost distant enough to fly off and forget.

Snow White

Snow White

Life's so simple when you're little,

but everyone has to grow up.

It may not be the big white castle,

and it may even be corrupt.

You may or may not get what you want,

I have yet to meet Prince Charming,

I really don't think he exists.

Isn't he supposed to be your first kiss?

Life isn't an enchanted fairy tale,

is there a genie who gives three wishes?

You can't pick and choose the details,

every one's just imprinted with malfunctioning glitches.

It defines us as who we are,

we all have imperfections,

we cry when we're sad,

we get happy and mad,

there's no correct direction,

not everyone feels affection.

As it turns out true,

we can swallow pride,

and get on with our lives.

A perfectly fit enclosing glass box,

finely encases my porcelain white skin.

I'm numb in rest with my thoughts,

anxiously waiting to be awaken.

I long to see those deep dark eyes,

longing to come find and claim my heart.

Through all the painful long goodbyes,

my future awaits with you to finally start.

Those strong hands lift the glass and separation,

time remains still in this moment,

your defined hard lips meet mine in determination

of defeating your most challenging opponent.

As your lips linger on mine,

a rush floods my brain,

every thing's more than just fine,

It's your euphoria to remain.

Seeing through my closed eye lids,

never actually awakening to you.

Was this all in my sleeping head,

Prince Charming, I'm still waiting for you.